"Baba wept while listening to Robeson"

It shows what I miss for years and years when I just see stars and names I think I understand. Books I pretend to have read or think I've read and people I think I know. People I missed meeting , missed knowing because of my own fear and laziness.

There they have been.

Together.

All along.

And I had no idea.


Baba gave me this gift on the 42nd remembrance of when he dropped the body. Our little son carries a small framed picture of Baba and usually leaves it in front of the Happy Birthday poster or he chews on the corners and hides it with his stacking toys. He knows him better than I do.


Less yelling and less talking now.




For seven days following his passing away, people from all religions, creeds and castes, from the East and the West, entered Baba’s samadhi (tomb) for a final glimpse of his body before his coffin was sealed. And from April to June 1969, the Great, last darshan that he had promised took place in Poona and at the samadhi. Thousands, including many young westerners who had just heard about him, came to sing in devotion or sit in silence. Though it was the end of Meher Baba’s physical presence on earth, these darshans signified the continuation of humanity’s yearning for God.





THAT FIRST DAY, many people came to see Meher Baba. Among them were Maggie Barton, Kitty and Herbert's older sister Martha May Cluse, Horace Fleming and a Japanese jujitsu teacher named Koizumi. Baba met them all individually and then stopped seeing visitors, deciding to have a private meeting with Herbert, Meredith, Kitty, Margaret and a few others. During this occasion, Paul Robeson records were played.
Lord Meher ; Bhau Kalchuri - Vol.4 p1410

2nd Oct. 1931
During this last night, Kitty, May, Delia, Margaret, Kim, Minta, Tod and Purdom stayed with Baba until one in the morning. They wept most of the time in Baba's presence. Baba looked so beautiful and they were so sorrowful at his departure. Addressing the mandali, their hearts sobbed, "You are taking our beloved Baba away! Don't be cruel! Don't take him with you. Let him stay here with us." After records of Paul Robeson's songs were played, Baba dismissed the group.
Lord Meher ; Bhau Kalchuri - Vol.4 p1453

18th Dec. 1931
On December 18th 1931, Baba, Chanji and Agha Ali boarded the English ship S. S. Narkunda for their voyage to India. Baba had taken the Paul Robeson records back with him and would have them played in his cabin. On December 23rd, it was observed that Baba wept while listening to Robeson sing Feed My Sheep – thinking of the new lovers he had left behind and their grief at his departure.
Lord Meher ; Bhau Kalchuri - Vol.4 p1510

May 1932, Baba would occasionally take walks on the deck outside for an hour in the morning and evening, and he played ping-pong with one of his companions. Every afternoon, he visited the movie theater on board. Otherwise, Baba remained in his cabin, either discussing future plans with the mandali, listening to Paul Robeson records, or having general or private meetings with Tod, Meredith and Margaret.
Lord Meher ; Bhau Kalchuri - Vol.5 p1614

Mid May 1932
They had brought the gramophone and played Hawaiian and Spanish records and the songs of Paul Robeson. Baba gave them wine to drink and told them that when a Master distributed wine, it had special significance.

They had another picnic on August 11th in Portofino. For his gopis, the times in Santa Margherita were happy and enjoyable days in their Beloved's company. It was a very intimate time. Every day, Baba would sit on the rocks by the seashore as the group sun-bathed and talked. Once, while they were discussing books, Baba smiled and gestured, "Learn to read me, for when you understand me, you will understand everything!"
Lord Meher ; Bhau Kalchuri - Vol.5 p1614

May 1937
Before leaving that afternoon, Baba called the Westerners into the living room and asked Tom Sharpley to play some phonograph records. After listening to a few, Baba indicated he would like to hear a certain song by Paul Robeson. Baba then instructed the group, "As you listen to the music, try to picture me hanging on the cross. Try to visualize it. Don't force it; just try to see it in your mind's eye."
Lord Meher ; Bhau Kalchuri - Vol.6 p2174

Numerous records were played on Baba's first day in London at Kitty Davy's family home on the 12th September 1931.
Paul Robeson songs played were ; "Steal Away, Steal Away to Jesus " , "Swing Low, Swing Chariot " , " My Lord, What a Morning", "Hear the Lambs A'Crying ".

Number One With A Bullet: Sarah Palin is the new Madonna brought to you by the Democratic Party

"Don’t retreat, reload."
-Sarah Palin

"They bring a knife to the fight, we bring a gun"
-President Barack Obabma

"Why is it when a bunch of non Black citizens get shot, the country loses it's fucking mind and asks "what happened?" Stop blaming Sarah Palin and the Tea Party for a the acts of a random nut case who has more issues than Time Magazine... I would have LOVED to have seen a smidgen of this faux concern for ALL of America's citizens ESPECIALLY when it happens on a daily basis in our inner cities"
-Music Chef

"I've never been treated more disrespectfully as a woman than by the Black men that I've dated."
-Madonna
(who's white husband Sean Penn hit her in the head with a baseball bat and beat her up numerous times)


Sorry folks.

Sarah Palin is what happens when Democrats go centre/upper middle class on lesser income progressive folks once known as the solid Left and the middle class. She is what happens when the Democrats forget that not everyone grew up deluded and privileged, spoon fed on Vachel Lindsay's racist Congo poems and the Kennedy mythos. Palin is what springs up like a Lerna Hydra's head when people watch their jobs moved overseas, terrorists given their "civil liberties" and big businesses bailed out yet again. The media plays the masses and Sarah Palin is a pop star with a five record deal laying down tracks in symbiosis. Don't blame the Tea Party oh my fellow Democrats-buy a mirror- preferably one made in China. We have a national tragedy that is shocking and heartbreaking. Shooting children and innocent people engaged in peaceful assembly is barbaric. And watching in horror whilst it is exploited by the media and countless public figures faster than a payola 80's relic going into Africa and buying babies, is an outgrowth of that abhorrence.

I condemn Sarah Palin's messages and her foul map with gun signs. She relishes the toying of gun owner symbolism to push buttons (Ted Nugent has been doing it for donkey's years) but wake the hell up-she's no threat if you know what a threat really is. The fact that this is lost on most liberals is sickening to me. As vitriolic political figures go, she's not even beginning to approach the worst or the most dangerous out there. The past NINE presidential administrations have been connected to terror and mass murder. And seriously? Why am I leaving Kennedy out? Because I grew up spoon fed on mythos too? Most likely. Let's keep going back to his occupation of Laos, Vietnam and his arms race. Talk about crosshairs! "JFK and NATO: A Love Affair."

Children and innocent people are shot everyday in the inner cities of the United States. 20 percent of Native-American newborns suffer from Foetal Alcohol Syndrome. I'm an expatriate, living in England, a country where Anarchists, who are ostensibly Left, are just as violent and hateful as the Right (and even better funded) so I can assure you all violence is wrong and an assumed higher "threat count" on one side does not absolve the other.

So my Demo friends, you should be prepared! As someone who has followed, watched and considered myself more than a few rock stars, Sarah Palin will most likely be President someday soon if the Democrats don't start seeing other people. Reagan relic and gun happy NRA Barbie as she is, the Democrats can't turn anything out as well processed as Palin. And...

THE MEDIA NOW LOVES SARAH PALIN MORE THAN PRESIDENT OBAMA.

Symbiosis par 'what the fuckallance.'

When the media loves you (and they love very few as much as Palin) they allow you to spin negativity and hate into PR and PR into energy and ploughshares into Minutemen. Madonna has been their sacred cow since the mid 80's, being able to make the most foul moves and always be protected. Being indulged to the point where even selling hardcore porn to little children is considered "feminism." Nary an authentic backlash or an erasure via international media publishing. And now that Madonna has long since outlived her appeal to straight men and Palin will replace her but with a much greater global fame and a much more dramatic effect on woman and the media. I've watched Madonna act like a raunchy airhead, literally founding female slut culture as a mainstream Wal Mart style brand aimed at under tens; nasty, hateful and inarticulate. Simultaneously, courting and breeding a sensationalist media and then walking out onstage at The MTV Awards, following Princess Diana's death, to siphon the then unparalleled global grief, imploring: "We must stop the relentless and insatiable need for gossip and sensationalism!"

Palin won't have to work remotely that hard being manipulative because unlike Madonna, Palin knows what she is. Palin knows who she is and likes it. She's not trying to work out a psychological grudge fuck against the Catholics Church. Palin has cajones, skills and does not care what people think. Palin does not pay for sex. The myth about Madonna is that Madonna has all those things too but empirically speaking she has none. An exercise bulimic is never oblivious to approval from others. Palin is laser focused on success not approval from a sexist bunch of arm chair liberals on Huffington Post who'd save Tibet while paying their nanny slave wages and who think Paul Robeson was the 'man whom played Uncle Remus in Disney's "Song of The South."'

Fran Lebowitz said it once ( and I hated reading it), "one Clarence Thomas is not enough" to make a level playing field for blacks in the United States. This is true in a gender way with Sarah Palin, whacked as it that sounds. It will take a beloved right winger like Palin to allow a beloved female Leftist to emerge in the global media. The media has been stuck on Madonna as a symbol of "pro-Feminism" and yet she never delivered anything important. Never really broke any new ground like Sarah Palin is. Not for liberals, not for Gays and lesbians fighting for rights on Capitol Hill (Lady Gaga has done more in two years for her Gay fans than Madonna has in over 25) and certainly to women. Madonna left a huge steaming pile for women to clean up. She's a new age religious fanatic who will have spend more time 'roiding in a gym or sitting in a stylist chair than she'll ever spend with her children (or in bed) by the time she checks out. Not Palin.

Palin's strange teleprompter speech on January 12th 2011, was bizarrely the only well worded statement by any public official of the last few days because it was not pretending to be something "magical" and "healing." Palin's effect will open the door for more radical women-both left and right-to emerge on the political scene. She mentioned Christianity less than the President did at the memorial service later that same day. Palin made a slam dunk set up by a media who is both fascinated by and harassing her. Will I vote for her? Never. Do I like Reagan whom she worships and quotes? Hate his guts. Do I see how careful she is to play the spin? Sure but she's DOING IT and kicking ass with nearly everyone's help-be it purposefully or inadvertently-myself included.

The Democrats are simply not turning people on like she is.

Letter to Grandma: "Show me how to be a better Catholic, lest I feign stigmata at secondary school!!!"

( "Sandoz Nostalgia" Original four sided Decoupage in memory of my Grandma Rose)


(I'm truly shocked. It was obvious then that I was leading my Nan to a certain extent because I wanted to appeal to her old school Second Generation Italian Calabrian self and was hoping for some extra shrapnel in the Christmas stocking but wow- I praised the Pope? I was feigning stigmata in middle school? Did I think I was being 'cheeky?" Irreverent? Irish free flow? Will I lose my Commie Card over this? I've still never been to a Catholic Mass only the Anglican services. My baptism at St.Leos on Piedmont Avenue across from Fentons still stands as my sole appearance to date. I feel I have respect for all religions beacuse I was raised without any of them.)

5/23/92


Dear Grandma,

Thank you and Grandpa very much for the necklace! I love Indian things! And I can wear it to graduation from the 8th grade! I can't believe soon I will be 14 years old! Most kids don't think that's a big deal but i do! 14 is a long way to go! I hate school but I have many friends. The teachers don't like me alot (sic) of them stand near me and my friends and shake their heads! I hate them!

Well I thought about it and I just thought I better tell you because you're an expert on the subject. Anyway whats (sic) been on my mind alot lately is something I never really thought about before. No its not Sex or Drugs its Religion!!! please don't be angry at with mom but I have a friemnd who is Baptist almost everyone in ( 'insert name of foul redneck rural California town here' ) is and I went with her to a couple of services and can you believe it they said the Catholics were with the devil! I could have exploded because up until a month ago I didn't know that the Christian church had broken away from the Catholic Church I thought they were both the same!! My friend (____) her father is a Christian preacher and she'd forced to sit through these horrible services were they say people who listen to pop music are "Devil Worshippers!!"

That made me sooooo mad!! I'm not to(sic) into religion but I don't like it what people say when I tell them I was baptised Roman Catholic and that I'm proud of it! I mean when you compare Billy Graham to the Pope its like comparing the NBC orchestra to Mozart! Last time I got into a ruck about religion I ended up beating up a girl because she said I was sacrareligious (spelling?) etc. She wasn't hurt but we both got suspended from school for a day. I was thinking about learning some Latin then talking in tongue at school to see what all the kids that hate me because I'm Catholic would do? But I think I might be insulting myself more.

Once this really weird boy was bugging me and saying really mean things to me so I held up my and told him when I was 16 the blisters on my palms would pop open and blood will run out and that he was messing around with someone higher then him and that weird boy hasn't bugged me since! Don't get me wrong I have alot of friends and get O.K. grades and I'm not using religion as a hoax or for fun because I know the Roman Catholic church doesn't mess around and it's super serious. I told my mom while that man was downing the Catholic Church I wanted to scream at him that part of the Christian religion was formed out of sin so King Henry could marry another wife so he sent Catherine of Aragon away who was Catholic and started the Anglican church which was just the Christian Church!

Mom said my facts weren't strait(sic) and that before I oppose someone about religion I should learn more. But we both agree the Christian church is for sinners that call themselves churchgoers to make themselves feel better! There are over 120 Christian Churches in ______. 1 Catholic and no synagoges (sic)! Next time I see you we should go to mass together so I can get an understanding of the Catholic church. Mom works and has to sleep in the day time so I'll probably go there on my own if I can get there besides I think she's already excommuted(sic) because of divorce etc. She also says I shouldn't go back to the baptist church beacuse I don't like the way they distort things and they give me funny look! _____ isn't a religious freak but her parents are!

Please try to send me any information you have on R. Catholic etc beacuse the Encyclopaedia is hard to understand. And please don't be angry with mom for letting me go to a Christian service it was a good expirence(sic) but a boring one because I didn't feel anything good about Jesus or Mary (who they didnt(sic) even mention!!) was said. Thanks you.
I Love you and Grandpa!
PS:I'm really into cooking these days! x x xxxxx
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